Think Too Much

Hmm.. maybe i really did think too much.. i'm a person who really think alot and can be pessimistic at times.. luckily A knows that.. i think A will forgive me.. no worries.. i wont simply think anymore.. i know you still treat me very good.. just that i can't feel it.. don't worry.. i won't say stupid things anymore.. hope things will recover soon.. ^^

Not So Happy..

I'm not so happy lately.. dunno why.. i'm having a happy life.. but somehow, i feel that i'm missing something too.. like when you;re so close with someone then suddenly that person has someone closer and it feels that you're so left out.. i'm an easily jealous person.. i used to be very close with A.. but recently, i feel that it's like we have a distance.. maybe because i focus more on B now so i dun really spent time with A anymore.. and when A starts to get close with C whom i'm very close with as well, my jealousy start to come.. maybe becuz i did not care abt A as much as last time or i did not spent time with C as much as last time so they end up being closer with each other.. i'm not saying it's a bad thing but somehow i just feel uneasy.. esp when we're all together.. i can only keep quiet becuz it's like i dunno how to get in to their conversation.. but i still try to join in everytime i can.. when i see them being so close, i wud rather walk away.. is it really that hard to be close to everyone?? maybe i really focus too much on B till i neglected them and makes them feel that i'm taking granted on them.. i dunno.. i just dun like someone close to me just get further apart and be close with my another close fren.. of cuz everyone has the right to make their own frens.. i just dun like how it happens that it's so coincidentally both also were my close frens and i suddenly feel so left out.. i no longer has the place in their heart.. maybe i still have but not the top.. i no longer is the one that they care the most.. just dun like how it feels.. maybe i shud just walk out of their life.. i'm too dependent on A so whenever A sacrifice or do something for C, then i'll feel uneasy again.. i really cant control my jealousy.. so it's better for me that i walk out of their lifes.. but i'm grateful that they used to be my best bud.. i'll still treat them as frens.. but i'll try my best not to involved in their life anymore.. it really hurts.. i dowan to affect their relationship.. so i'll try my best to leave.. nvm la.. i know i can do it.. only have another 9 months to go.. i can do it.. ^^

21st Birthday..

I had a memorable 21st b'day.. i passed 12am in the hospital.. how nice.. -.-' .. but thanks to Fei Fei, Zhu, Jia Sen, Ah Wai and Chuin that i din had a lonely b'day.. they were in the hospital with me.. but i'm lucky.. cuz i got discharged on that day too.. planned to have steamboat and apartment stay on my b'day but too bad.. can't carry on the plan.. can only postpone to nx week.. went to watch movie that night though i'm still not fully recovered.. wanted to watch Final Destination but we were late to get the tickets so we watched Laughing Gor instead.. Fei Fei told me Siang's gonna buy me a cake as a surprise.. when i reached home, they only bought a small mousse cake for me.. they said it's bcuz i already know their surprise.. so they just bought a small one for me.. then they off the light to sing b'day songs for me without candles though.. i din expect anything from them.. i keep on telling them that dun have to sing songs for me since there's no candles anyway.. but end up that they bought another chocolate cake for me with candles lit with fire.. i was so surprised.. am really grateful.. wanna thanks Siang, Zhu, Jia Sen, Foo and Ah Wai for the cake.. love you guys.. ^^

Hospitalized

It's been some time since i write blog.. so much to update.. i'll just start with me being hospitalized.. i had fever on the last thurs of Aug.. went to s'pore clinic for 3 times.. the first time i went, i only had slight fever.. second time was when my fever reached up to almost 41°C.. the third time was when i non-stop vomit.. vomited almost every 15 mins.. can't drink water, eat med or food.. even there's nth else in my tummy, i still vomit air.. really 'san fu'.. sat morning around 4am, they sent me to Lam Wah Ee.. by the time the prosedures and everything else settle, it's already 5 smth in the morning.. stayed there for almost a week.. life in hospital is so "enjoyable".. will nvr ever forget the experience there.. every night there is like every night in hell.. high fever, vomit, diarrhea, injection, swollen vain, 'hang' sodium chloride, everyday doing nth in the hospital.. it's really unforgettable.. was discharged on thurday.. anyway.. i wanna thanks everyone who have visited me.. U. Chuah, Siang, Zhu, Jia Sen, Prince, Wai, Yee Theng, Gina Lim, Chuin, Ting, Gina, Loon, Ping, Xiao Fei, Mei Mei, Da Jie, Razeef, Eagle, Chean Fang and special thanks to my Wifey Theng.. she came to visit me after she reached pg.. so touched.. thanks theng.. ^^ .. and wanna thanks U. Chuah, Gina, Chuin and Zhu for staying in the hospital with me.. love you guys.. ^^

Lovely Sarturday

After all the exams, i'm finally free from it now.. at least i wont have any finals till dec.. so.. i went club on sat after so long for not going club.. it was not really fun as i wasn't fully recover from my sickness.. i almost faint in there.. lol.. not bcuz i was drunk.. it's bcuz of my sickness.. i shudn't have went club but all my frens have plan this even before our exam finish.. so i was really looking forward to it.. other that me almost fainted, it was not a bad night.. dollar went too.. but too bad.. i din take pic with Ting, Dollar, Zhu, Vi Wen and Shing Huoy.. only took pic with Gina and Ping.. anyway.. wanna thanks Gina, Ping, Ting, Loon and Sunny for taking care of me that night.. love you guys.. ^^ .. so here's the pic i've taken..

Gina and I

She's so cute, isn't she??

Ping and I

Ping and Sin Wei

New Hair Cut

It's been so long since i update my blog.. haha.. anyway.. went to cut my hair today.. unfortunately i din cut into short bob.. decided to cut it shorter only.. went to a new hair saloon.. i like it.. will visit there nx time.. anyway.. took some pic.. ^^

Happy Sweet 19th Birthday, Win Win!!

Happy birthday, Win.. i know it's belated dee.. and i din wish you last night.. i know there's not suppose to have any excuses not to wish you.. but i was really busy and tired last night.. hope you understand.. anyway.. hope you had fun last night.. just wanna wish you happy birthday!!!! ^^